Chapter 9 - The Trial of Memory

Two years passed.
Life moved forward with the unstoppable, beautiful rhythm of a smoothly tuned engine.
My work as Lead Forensic Auditor for the Federal Task Force took me across the country, uncovering financial corruption and bringing down human traffickers, money launderers, and abusive corporate executives. But no matter how far my work carried me, my home remained the warm stone house on the south side of Chicago beside Dad’s auto shop.
One rainy Tuesday afternoon, a letter arrived at my office from the Illinois Department of Corrections.
I opened the envelope. Inside was a formal notice of inmate status update for Inmate #884920: Marcus Vance.
The document stated that Marcus had been transferred to a medium-security facility following a series of disciplinary infractions inside the prison. Attached was a handwritten letter addressed to me, forwarded through his institutional case manager.
I unfolded the yellow notebook paper.
Phoebe, I’m writing this because the prison therapist told me I need to make amends. I know you hate me. I know I destroyed everything. My father died of a heart attack in prison last month, and my mother refuses to take my calls from her halfway house. I have nothing left. No money, no family, no future. I see photos of your foundation in the news magazines in the prison library. I see how happy Lily looks. I know I don't deserve to be her father. I just want to know if she knows who I am. Please reply. Marcus.
I stared at the letter for a long moment.
Two years ago, reading a letter from Marcus would have sent a spike of adrenaline through my chest, bringing back the terrifying memory of his fingers around my throat in that hospital room.
Now, as I looked at his trembling handwriting, I felt nothing. No anger, no resentment, no pain—only a vast, clean ocean of complete indifference.
I picked up the yellow notebook paper, walked over to the paper shredder beside my desk, and slid it into the slot.
The machine whirred smoothly, reducing Marcus’s desperate pleas into thin, meaningless strips of white confetti.
I pressed the button on my intercom. "Clara, please make a note in the security log. Any future correspondence from inmate Marcus Vance is to be destroyed upon arrival without review."
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"Understood, Ms. Vance," Clara replied.
I closed the file cabinet, picked up my coat, and stepped out into the crisp, refreshing afternoon rain.